Well, the next few days will present a 'perfect storm' of signal events in the life of the DeWitt family. Our oldest son (Alex) will graduate from high school on the June 6th. Sarah and I foolishly volunteered for all night chaperon duties at Project Graduation immediately following. The next day (7th) will be spent recovering and refinancing (debt/mortgage consolidation paperwork). Saturday (8th) will be our 22nd anniversary and Sunday the 9th will be my niece Michelle's graduation from Windham. Monday the 10th is a rest day followed by my birthday on the 11th (51).
I feel oddly detached from all these goings on as if I've used up all my RAM and am now showing "The Blue Screen of Death" (computer geeks will get that reference). I should feel more excited, engaged, melancholy but somehow, I don't.
Yes I am extremely proud of Alex. He has gone from a struggling high school student to a focused, self-directed man charting, what I thing, is a good path ahead. But I don't have that weepy, melancholy feeling I guess I am supposed to have. It probably won't hit me until I see him walk across the stage.
I'm also not that pumped about my anniversary or birthday. I have some kind of a "meh" attitude at the moment. Is this just a sign of aging or just too much joy at one time? I have decided not to force it or fake it and let the days come and whatever emotions surface to come with them.
No worries, man, just let it come. :)
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